My body is out of whack. I am still 15 pounds heavier than when I got pregnant in the first place. (And 40 pounds heavier than I'd really like to be). I feel blob-like. My clothes don't really fit, but I packed away all of my maternity clothes a week after because I couldn't stand to look at them, let alone wear them.
I bled for 10 days, then nothing. I started bleeding again June 1st and am still bleeding heavily. Could be leftover post-partum bleeding or could be my period, Dr. P said anything is normal. Last night I bled through my tampon and my skirt and left a stain on the drivers seat of my car. It almost caused a breakdown--amidst all the horrible things that have happened to me in the past month, a stain on my car almost put me over the edge.
My breasts were swollen and leaking milk for the first week, my stomach still has the black line down it, only now it's just flabby instead of stretched over my baby.
My face is covered in acne, my hair is not combed most of the time. I look like a wreck, but that's ok, because it matches how I've been feeling lately.
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