Saturday, August 6, 2011

too soon

Looks like I spoke too soon.  I am not pregnant.  Chemical pregnancy.  I am ok I guess.  I didn't need a big setback in my grief like this.  I didn't NEED any of this in my life.  Why can't my life just "go back to normal?"  It breaks my heart when I have to realize over and over again that this IS normal now.

As counter-productive as I know it is, I want to just pretend like this never happened.  I want to shut down a little bit and go through the motions until I can let my grief back in.

It just gets exhausting, doesn't it?

3 comments:

  1. Sorry to hear about your setback. I hope that your test come back ok! My thought are with you and your husband.

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  2. My thoughts are with you. I am so sorry about the news. Maybe Kayla and God have other plans for you. Back to grieving 101. I am here for you. Prayers are with you.

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  3. thanks, ladies! I'm glad I have found such a great support group online.

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