flashbacks

I don't know if it is because of the disappointment of this recent loss, or because I went back to my school this week and have seen a lot of people that I haven't seen all summer, or if I'm just tired from working longer days, but I have been having a lot more "flashbacks,"  where I remember specific details from the hospital.  Usually at night, when I'm trying to fall asleep.  I will just suddenly be transported back to a single moment, replayed and frozen in my mind.  I think the shock of those 2 1/2 days was just too much for my brain to handle, and it's taking me all of these weeks and months to process everything.  So a single sentence like "She might not be in the best condition"  or a single moment, like when I sat in the waiting room, waiting for the nurse to take me back to my room, suddenly work themselves to the front of my inner file cabinet and I have to face them.  One by one.   Sort it all out, file it away in a safe place.