Tomorrow is the beginning of fall. A whole season has passed without Kayla. Soon I know I will be saying "8 months," "a whole year," "five years," have passed without Kayla. It was a beautiful day here and I spent my afternoon hanging out with the kids in my afterschool program. There is a lilac bush on our playground and it was covered with butterflies and bees today. We spent at least 20 minutes trying to catch butterflies and trying to avoid the bees. It was really fun. Moments of real fun are always welcome.
I called my sister on the way home and we were able to talk. She really doesn't understand why I would be upset with her, but it was nice to talk to her. I don't expect her to understand, and it's not her fault that I have to be going through this either. We will be ok. Two steps back, one step forward is how it is for me lately. But tonight I'm feeling hopeful, and grateful to snuggle up with my husband on the couch as the first chill of fall weather creeps in.
There is nothing better than feeling hopeful! I am proud of you for talking to your sister as we all know how hard that must have been. I did not realize a whole season had passed...although I was aware that the Summer that I wanted so much to be home with my daughter was now behind me. On to the Fall and all the hope it brings...
ReplyDeleteVery proud of you for talking with your sister. I don't know that I could have done it. And for you to be so understanding..that makes you a beautiful person.
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