Today is 11 months. Of shock, grief, sadness, but also of healing and growing and hope. It's the last time I can count Kayla's absence in months instead of years. The 4th and the 5th of each month don't have as much weight as they used to. But I do stop to think of her, and how much she changed my life. I may be the only one who is remembering her today, on the 5th, but that is enough. She is mine forever.
And I have to admit, feeling her baby sister kicking and moving around, and the hope of a new life, makes it a little more bearable to only have Kayla in my heart instead of here with me.
Thinking of Kayla <3
ReplyDeleteRachel, I think of Kayla on the 4th & 5th, just like I think of Kim's Adrianna on the 4th and the triplets on the 5th. Thinking about you as her 1st birthday approaches...I know the emotions all too well!
ReplyDeleteIt is such a journey of sadness and grief, but that healing and growing is so important too! What a journey we have been taken on. Thinking of you, your Kayla and your new hope too xx
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