Sunday, October 9, 2011

unpredictable emotions

Last week I found the website Griefshare.org and signed up for their daily grief emails.  Last night I went to a birthday party and as soon as I got there, I knew it was an "off" night.  It was mostly people I don't know as well and I felt so awkward around them and I could tell they felt awkward too.  The person I knew best happened to be Luci, who came with her 3-week old daughter.  So I sat with them and that was ok, but it does sting to have everyone ooh-iing and ahh-ing over the baby while I sit there awkwardly.  After awhile I went out to the car to wait for my husband, and my griefshare email arrived.

The topic was "unpredictable emotions."  The unpredictable timing and odd combinations of emotions that hit you during grief can leave you confused and despairing.  

Yep, that pretty much sums it up. 

And here, a photo I took with Kayla's memory box. 

1 comment:

  1. I signed up for the same emails. I read them on most days, then there are days that just out right make me sooo mad. I hope you get something out of them. They are nice little reminders that we are not crazy.

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